From the Helm – Sunday, December 20, 2009
10:30 AM - Another morning slept in. I must have been more tired than I thought. Anderson met me for breakfast at 7:30, and then took me downtown for a meeting. The morning went by surprisingly fast.
I spoke to Luiza a bit about our legal situation with Carlinho and Hoseas. It is becoming clear the time to cut our losses in Manaus and move our operations to Parintins may be near. To stay on here will require substantially more resources than to relocate further down-river. Over the next month, our two small teams will allow us to check out airline and provisioning logistics from there. I feel some changes just below the surface, on several fronts. However, no decisions have to be made on it today. So, I’ll just let the days unfold until clarity drives away the questions of the mind. Luiza and I are scheduled to meet about it all over the next couple days.
3:00 PM – It’s been a good day. The boys and I just got back from lunch. In a bit, they’ll probably head out on the town, leaving me to my coffee – it’s a win-win situation…
- God continues to give me the peace I’ve grown to seek and cherish in our trek together. There are no storms brewing; no speculation or undue anticipation; nothing baffling. But for His grace and mercy, it would all be quite different for me. My memory is still fresh. Maybe, that’s why my gratitude is so profound. To wake up an amazed child each morning rather than the self-made victim of fruitless searching, is the difference He has made in it all. A difference I could scarcely imagine living without today.
I thank You, Lord, for the hours You’ve granted me this day. I look forward to whatever hours that remain for me, whether many or few. It doesn’t matter the distance yet to go. In the end, You will have accomplished in me whatever was Your plan and I will have truly lived every minute of it. For that, I am indescribably grateful. Grateful indeed…
From the Helm – Saturday, December 19, 2009
4:00 PM – Finally in for the afternoon. Don’t have anything further planned for the day except maybe a movie at the Mall down the street. For now, it’s good to be home for awhile with a good cup of coffee…
- We arrived in Manaus yesterday evening after the 34-hour trip down. All went without a ripple (bags even arrived on the same plane with us this time). Matthew and Phillip will head from here Monday night to be with Cida and William for the holidays. Her family decided, at about the last minute, to pay their way down – it will be good for them all. I’m grateful it all worked out.
It was good travelling with the Boys. It’s a whole different world than it was when we’d ventured out like this 10 years ago. They are fine young men today – good, easy company.
- After sleeping for 10 hours, I had breakfast with Anderson to plan the day as best we could. The thing we always agree on is to check off our list, slow and steady. When it’s done, it’s done. Always works pretty well that way.
After negotiating exchange rates with Ayobe and collecting some cash, we set out for the AMOR/Beatriz. Carlinho picked us up at the dock and took us aboard. Our “lady” was a sight for these old eyes to behold – She is beautiful. Luiza, Denilson, and Carlinho were busy tending to the details that bring a vessel to life after an extended sit. She should be ready for fueling and provisions by Wednesday. I told Luiza to head back to Parintins to be with her family when the deal is done. I’ll move aboard Thursday to take her place for the duration.
- All is well. I’m rested and ready for the hours God may have for me these next days. I couldn’t have placed myself in a better place and time than right here and now. Thank You, Lord, for it all…
From the Helm – Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Well, I’ve just made up my final, “final to-do list” in preparation for Thursday morning’s departure for the Valley. The AMOR/Beatriz is being readied for sail; Luiza is on her way to oversee the provisioning and legalities. My adrenaline is beginning to stir at a quickened pace. It’s about time to watch the days unfold from a different vantage point. I love it all, indeed…
From the Helm will pick up from Manaus and beyond, beginning around Saturday the 19th. I look forward to all God has prepared for the days to come. I’m grateful for this privilege He’s granted me. I look forward to sharing it all with those He places in my path…
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From the Helm – Sunday, November 15, 2009
- The AMOR/Lori is well on her way back to water. I’m hoping she will be in operation by Christmas.
- The trips for December and January are set to go. I will be headed down on December 18th to oversee the preparations. We still have some room if anyone feeing led to join. We need to know soon so that documentation may be completed for entry in to the Reservation. This is a highly restricted area… The first of our teams will arrive early on the 26th. I’m looking forward to all God has for us to see and experience as we cruise the waters of the Wai-Wai’s. I look forward to the days leading up to the days, as well.
- Due to scheduling problems (mostly me), our annual AMOR meeting in Kentucky will not take place until late January, 2010. I am now working on our 2009 ANNUAL REPORT, to be printed and mailed prior to my December departure for the Valley.
- This week, several people have come to me truly baffled by the circumstances of their lives. This has caused me to more purposefully ponder the profound simplicity of God’s truths. I’m grateful for these opportunities and the hope and assurance it produces in my own life.
Trials, challenges and difficulties. To me, theses are all words used to define more a state of mind than things physical and tangible. They reflect the result of my asking “why” instead of seeking wisdom, comfort and guidance through a time or event that has blindsided me. To the question “why”, there is rarely a reasonably satisfactory answer anyway.
When I begin this questioning, I set in motion a strange and futile phenomenon - that of trying to assign responsibility and reason to things I fear or don’t fully understand. This is fueled (and maybe even birthed) by my unwillingness to accept people, places and things as they are and naturally occur. Add to this fuel the determination to fix or alter these elements to be rid of the said “trial”, I’ve created the perfect recipe for chaos, conflict and sustained misery in my own life.
Spiritual growth comes largely by means of these potentially troubling events and times in our lives. Growth can come quickly, through accepting our inability to overcome and humbly seeking God’s will and strength in the matter. Or, the process can be lengthy in nature, producing unnecessary complications due to stubborn denial and rebellion (acts of our self-will). The saddest scenario of all, however, is when we refuse to surrender, making growth impossible. This course of action leads to self-inflicted emotional and spiritual wounds that develop in to scarred character through the actions we take – a seemingly relentless cycle of insecurity, anger, hopelessness and remorse.
For many years, due to my own pride and ego, refusal to grow was the only option I’d left open to myself. I truly did suffer many trials and challenges, ultimately failing miserably at every turn. I took all things personally – any ripple in my stream of things was viewed as a threat. Acting as author of my own peace of mind, I invariably found none at all.
A moment of clarity God granted me some years ago was the beginning of life as I know it today. In a moment, I profoundly understood that I was helpless in this world and in life itself. I was incapable of producing anything to insure my physical, spiritual and emotional survival. It was at that moment I asked of God the only thing He ever required of me, “God, help me…”
All any of us need do in order to begin life is seek the God who created it all and knows our fit in the mix. In this initial, desperate act of helpless seeking comes the small amount of humility needed to accept His ways instead of our own, if only for the day.
This continued seeking of His ways has led me to the greatest gift and “secret” of successful living I know – continued surrender leads to the peace of mind and spirit I’ve always desired. Knowledge of His will for me and His available power to carry on in the direction He reveals is all I need and should desire. If all I seek is His will for me, my actions will lead to His desired ends. Anything else is but futility of thought and action.
Today, I crave His presence, care and comfort. I live in His providence, grace and mercy. I do this because I’ve come from the absence of such things and desire never to return to such a place. Lord, I pray those who now find themselves overwhelmed by Your absence, will humbly seek You presence. If I’m to be of any help in the matter, I stand ready.
You know, it’s funny the truths I’ve spent 6 or 7 hundred words elaborating on are simply stated in scripture in just 5 short words: “Seek and ye shall find” What a deal, indeed…
From the Helm – Monday, November 02, 2009
I went to bed a bit bewildered last night. The financial obligations and challenges facing AMOR right now came to my mind rather intensely. This happens more and more frequently these days. The work taking place through AMOR in the Valley is, without question, beautiful, formidable, ongoing and humbling to be part of. The area that has always baffled me a bit is that of finances. Funds generally come in for specific projects which are much needed and appreciated. However, for the general operations required to administer our work, funding is sparse or much of the time, non-existent.
I ponder our finances as a matter of reality, not in questioning whether or not our work is or isn’t what God has directed us to do. He has never failed to provide for our needs and, in turn, the needs of those who help provide for our needs. I guess I just allow myself to become weary from time to time. Maybe it’s an act of futility – Maybe it’s a call for me to seek other ways and means of operating. I really don’t know the answer. I just know I get tired and relish in self-pity until I’m embarrassed with myself enough to stop….
I ask for the prayers of those who follow our ministry. Some days are just this way. I have to walk through them with a greater awareness of my limitations and dependence upon Him. Days that usually lead to greater ends than their beginnings seemed to promise…
The RBBI went beautifully last week. There were 44 lay-pastors and Itinerates present. They celebrated our 25th Anniversary of the Institute. I will post some pictures of the event over the next days. I am grateful for the gift of a friend that made it all possible. This person has made possible the last several RBBI’s. I know God sees and rewards him in ways unimaginable. It is because he seeks no reward at all that he will reap them, indeed.
The AMOR/Lori is still just under US$ 5,000.00 short of complete restoration. She is now sitting in dry-dock awaiting these funds to finish her. She will then be set for another 10 years (or ten minutes, as He so designates) of service. I look forward to seeing and traveling with her in December.
This morning came in beautiful fashion. The moon was setting behind the trees in my back yard - Orion’s Belt, high and bright. Thank You, Lord, for allowing me to gaze upon such things. Thank You for new beginnings each morning. Thank You for the comfort and peace You give me in all areas of this life I choose to relinquish to Your care and administration. Thank You for your provision, even when I momentarily question its certainty. I love You with all that I am…
From the Helm – Friday, October 23, 2009
The AMOR/Lori is still in the “process” of recuperation. We were a bit under in our estimations of costs. We are still about US$ 4,700.00 short due to some fiber-glassing and additional siding that must be repaired. So, if you were planning on helping and felt (due to my last email) it was already taken care of, please send your check today.
RBBI has their opening ceremony this evening. Everyone is excited. The Amazonas pastors are already in Parintins with the Para teams arriving this afternoon. Luiza is experiencing a relapse of pneumonia. Please pray she takes the time to rest in the midst of hosting the RBBI. She and Pedro are wonderful. Please pray for them over the next week.
Our trips for December and January to the Wai-Wai Nation are set and ready to go. There is still room for several to join. However, the airfare is getting more expensive with each passing day. If you would still like to join one of the teams, please contact me immediately.
I continue to be awed by God’s dealings in my life and the life of AMOR. Especially in these recent times of challenge, He has continued to provide the direction, wisdom and provision needed to take the next step before us. I’m grateful for the people He has place in my life. The encouraging emails and phone calls have been a calming blessing.
I’m grateful He’s allowed me to live as I live and do what I do. I recognize how privileged I am to be able to see, touch and feel the places He’s graced me to explore and experience. How indescribably beautiful it is to serve the peoples of these remote places. Thank You, Lord, for every moment of life You’ve given me. Thank You for the comfort of knowing that any further moments that may remain are ours to live together, as You lead and I follow. Thank You for it all…
From the Helm – Thursday, October 15, 2009
It’s been a good week thus far. The AMOR/Lori is in various stages of disrepair and repair. Pedro and Luiza are busy dealing with her in dry-dock as well as preparing for the RBBI scheduled to begin on the 23rd of this month. I’m grateful God placed this family in the life of AMOR and Paranorte. They are dedicated, persistent and consistent. A rare blessing, indeed.
Regarding our trips planned for December and January, we still have need of the following volunteers:
December 27 – January 07 Trip
Medical, Construction and VBS (total of 4 spaces)
January 11 - 21 Trip
Medical and Construction (total of 4 spaces)
Please contact us as soon as possible if you feel led to join us. Space on the airlines is critical at this point. Several have expressed an interest but have not yet made the commitment. I encourage you to do so now if God so leads. If you have any specific questions or concerns, please ask!
I look forward to hearing from you soon.
Email: boyd@amor-brazil.org
Boyd’s Cell: 870-656-0089
From the Helm – Monday, October 12, 2009
The week just past was one of tremendous blessing for me, personally, and for AMOR. Many people have responded to the plight of the AMOR/Lori. Enough has already been received to not only allow for her recuperation but, also, to continue with our plans for the upcoming RBBI. While the wheels seemed to be falling off the wagon, actually everything was falling in to place in a most beautiful way.
For many years I had difficulty asking anyone for help of any kind. Of course I realize this difficulty was rooted in pride and ego. I often found it easier to “suffer” through things rather than seek the wisdom and resources of others – secretly hoping someone would wake up and fix everything for me in the process (the folly of self-declared martyrdom…). This isn’t the best way to go about life.
I’m truly grateful for God’s provision over the past days. I’m grateful for His moving in the lives of dear friends to meet the challenges we’ve together faced. It has been yet another lesson in trusting in God’s mercy, grace and guidance. I needn’t question His faithfulness. It’s a given…
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I’ve been a bit saddened over the past couple weeks as well. I’ve watched as human nature has won battles at turning points for several I know. You see, it’s in our nature to seek self-preservation. The problem is in where and to what extent we tend to seek this salvation from our circumstances.
The easier, softer answer is to depend on God to lead us while asking only for clarity of direction, divorced from self-will and self-interest. However, our most frequently adopted resolution is to barrel on ahead to disastrous ends for us and those around us.
We all come to turning points and crossroads along life’s course. How we perceive these situations will determine our success through the fogs and mazes that necessarily confront us. Much is said about “pride” in Scripture – none of the references are very affirmative. However, in spite of all the history available to us, we seem to think it doesn’t apply to our particular, peculiar circumstances.
When circumstances become overwhelming, we tend to obscure the obvious call to surrender in favor of the spirit of fight. In my own case, fight was never the right choice. This largely due to the fact I’d become overwhelmed by my own best efforts in a matter. I’d sought to force an issue based of power and control – neither of which I’ve ever processed, much less mastered.
The great paradox of surrender to God’s will in order to achieve peace and livability is always the answer. This is an absolute truth that never varies in its simplicity and result. Those of us who desire life, as He has it for us to live, will always retreat to the comfort of surrender – for this, we know, is where life begins.
No matter how far we’ve ventured down the road of self-centeredness, egotism, etc., as long as there is still breathe within us, there is still time to stop the insanity. There is always that moment we may choose to stop fighting and know God is exactly who He says He is. At this point, another paradox comes to view – When we give up what we’ve always thought to be the source of our worth and security, yielding to whatever God may have for us around the next bend, we find that what He reveals to us is what we’ve wanted all along…
My life was once an ever increasing cycle of attempted control, manipulation and arrogance. I was able to author a world of harm done to others for the sake of what I felt was right for me and them. By God’s grace and mercy, I was able to see the futility of the whole deal – I was able to see that I, not the world, was wrong. The world was my victim, not I the victim of the world.
So, all I’m able to do these days is pray for and be available to my friends in tight spots. I know from experience it takes a touch from God to awaken a heart to change. No word from me could ever influence change on such a fundamental level – for this, I am truly relieved and grateful – grateful indeed…
Thank You, Lord, for these days You’ve graced me with. Thank You for the peace You’ve allowed me to feel is such overwhelming proportions. Thank You for the privilege of seeking You. Thank You for the All that You are to me…
From the Helm – Tuesday, October 06, 2009 - (Update on the AMOR/Lori)
It has been an eventful 8 days since the Lori took on water. I am grateful for all the emails expressing concern and prayer support. I am grateful for all who have said they will help in some way. It will be a blessing when the help actually arrives.
The Lori is on land. The repairs will involve approximately 50% of her hull along with the shaft tunnel, some siding and full paint. Her engine has been torn down and was being re-assembled today. The generators are next in line.
I’m grateful to have Pedro and his family onsite. Luiza is in Manaus handling some business relating to the AMOR/Beatriz and Missao Paranorte. She will return to Parintins later this week.
I’m attaching a few photos. Maybe this time they will actually make it… Thank you again for your continue support of the work in the Valley. The AMOR/Lori should be ready to cruise again soon. I look forward to seeing her all dressed up and new again.
God has been gracious in His dealings over the past days. I look forward to the days ahead as my mind and heart become better able to digest the width and depth of it all...
From the Helm – Thursday, October 01, 2009
Hey All.
The following are photographs of what we are facing with the AMOR/Lori. She is being pulled today so the damages may be accessed. The damages to equipment are extensive.
AMOR does not have the funds to do what will necessarily have to be done. Unfortunately, what has to be done must be done urgently. Just one of those things that cannot be postponed until better times.
We need help right now. I ask that anyone who feels led to meet this need please email me or call me and I will give all the details and information I have. This is an opportunity to be of specific blessing and service to the work in the Valley. I look forward to hearing from you soon.
Email: boyd@amor-brazil.org
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From the Helm – Tuesday, September 29, 2009
As I was leaving the house last night, I received word that the AMOR/Lori had sunk in port. I have few details at the moment other than her engine and generators were completely submerged during the event. No one was injured. Pedro, Luiza and the crews of surrounding vessels worked all afternoon to save her. She went down anyway. Just a catastrophic event we will know more about as this day unfolds.
She will be raised and dry-docked today. Damages will be accessed. Repairs will be scheduled.
We had planned to pull her when funds become available in January. I guess these “plans” have been bumped up a bit. More details to come.
All is well. All things work for good. I’m grateful to know this to be true, without a doubt…
Hey there.
I thank all who have responded with interest in our trips to the Wai-Wai Indian Nation. As it stands now, we still need several to minister in the areas of medical, teaching and water system installation. The needs are as follows:
Medical - Physicians, Nurses, PA's - First and Second trip
Bible Teachers - Second trip
Dental - First trip
VBS - First trip
Construction - First and Second trip
We are still working on the airfare quotes. Please allow us another week to get that all arranged. I will contact you as soon as I know the math.
I am attaching the original letter for your review. Even if you have already responded and confirmed you will be joining us, please reply again so we may begin to solidify our plans, ok?
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Hey All.
Just wanted to make everyone aware of a unique opportunity on the horizon. Many have expressed an interest in joining me in the Wai-Wai Nation whenever we next travelled to that region. Well, the time for such a trip is now approaching.
The situation that has been on my heart and mind involves medical, dental, Bible teaching, VBS and the laying a water system - All in the community of Inaja.
Due to the logistics, we will need to take two separate teams of 12 volunteers each. The first team would concentrate more on the medical, VBS and teaching. The second will lean more toward VBS, teaching and construction.
Due to the level of difficulty involved with transportation, special circumstances and limited numbers, the cost to each individual will be US$ 2,580.00, plus airfare. There will be an additional commuter flight from Manaus to Parintins. This will get us about 24 hours closer to our starting destination of Cachoeira Porteira, allowing for two additional days on location.
The trip will be different from most you have been on. For starters, it involves two days travel aboard open Indian dugouts, negotiating falls and rapids all the way. Our accommodations on location will be adequate but, as of yet, undetermined. We will have our own chef as well as essential interpreters and staff. However, it will be much different than life aboard the AMOR/Beatriz…
The dates for the trips are as follows:
1st Team – December 28 – January 07, 2010
2nd Team – January 11 – 21, 2010
Well, there is the opportunity available to the few who will be able to join me. Please pray about the whole thing, seeking clarity as God chooses to reveal. I look forward to hearing from each who may feel this is what God may have in mind for your Christmas and New Year’s.
Call or email me if you would seriously consider this special blessing over the holidays. As always, let me know how I may be of service. May you continue to be teachable as God leads in the days ahead.
From the Helm – Tuesday, September 15, 2009
4:45 AM - The trips for December and January seem to finally be coming together. There is still a need for people to lay the water system in Inaja as well as a doctor and several Bible teachers. I trust God will touch the hearts of those He desires to fill these gaps. I’ve express the desire in my heart to go. The touching of hearts to join me is entirely up to Him.
So, this Tuesday is now set to unfold as He chooses. It’s raining outside. I love the rain. It tends to take all unnecessary urgency out of the pace of things. I look forward to all that will transpire in the coming hours – I look forward to it all, indeed…
- Over the past couple weeks, God has dealt gently and subtly with my heart and mind.
I’ve sought His presence more determinedly due to the acute awareness that I’d been seeking my own solutions to situations, with remarkable ease. This ease of self-justification based on “intuitive thought” is best left to those with better thought processes than mine – of this I am certain…
At times, I tend to get comfortable with the fact that I’m just where I need to be in my relationship to You, Lord. I get comfortable knowing I am but following Your lead. Ironically, this comfort often leads me to seek You less. This, in turn, leads to less conscious dependence, which leads to subtle anxieties. Anxiety leads to unguided thought, which in turn, leads to erratic action. When left unchecked, this scenario invariably produces a less than desirable result.
I’ve come to believe that knowledge of God’s will for our lives is paramount to peace of mind and usefulness to Him. Last week I was blessed to take part of a number of discussions on the subject. The result for me was beautiful indeed.
In reflecting on such matters, I must reduce the equation to its simplest form. God’s granted me just enough thinking capacity to recognize the basics and just enough sense to realize when I’m complicating the simplicity of these basics.
The common thread of the conversations was the age-old question of “How do I know God’s will for my life?” For me, the answer to this question is simple: I’ll not see clearly His will in any situation as long as I retain my own will in the equation. The answer to removing my will is conscious, continuous surrender. I must change the way I see the challenges placed before me. I must trust He will show me what I need to see and reveal the appropriate response (or, more often, lack of response) I should have.
For many years, I was under the impression that God’s revelation of Himself to me should be of the “lightning bolt” variety. I would have to know it all, right then and there, if it were to be valid. He would have to show me the future in order for me to trust Him with the present. What He showed me had to at least come close to what I’d determine to be good for me or otherwise had in mind for myself. I’d placed Him within the parameters of human thought and action – a place destined to keep me right where I was – Saved in the eternal sense. Lost in the living of life…
For many years I struggled needlessly with the idea of seeking God’s will. “Needlessly” because I really didn’t want to know His will at all. I simply desired to justify my own actions and hope those actions would at least remotely look and sound good to those around me. Fear, pride and ego kept me from the comfort and grace that seeking and obeying His will always produces. For someone like me, surrender was not an option. I’m grateful the day finally came when surrender became my only option.
So, surrender to Him is the answer to all questions of seeking His will for my life. I’m grateful He shows me only what lies directly before me. I’m grateful He only requires action regarding the things He reveals and in the manner and to the measure He reveals. To know His will for me, I need but be rid of my own. Thank You, Lord, for Your consideration of me. Thank You for the simplicity of what you require of me. Thank You, Lord, indeed…
Hey All.
Just wanted to make everyone aware of a unique opportunity on the horizon. Many have expressed an interest in joining me in the Wai-Wai Nation whenever we next travelled to that region. Well, the time for such a trip is now approaching.
The situation that has been on my heart and mind involves medical, dental, Bible teaching, VBS and the laying a water system - All in the community of Inaja.
Due to the logistics, we will need to take two separate teams of 12 volunteers each. The first team would concentrate more on the medical, VBS and teaching. The second will lean more toward VBS, teaching and construction.
Due to the level of difficulty involved with transportation, special circumstances and limited numbers, the cost to each individual will be US$ 2,580.00, plus airfare. There will be an additional commuter flight from Manaus to Parintins. This will get us about 24 hours closer to our starting destination of Cachoeira Porteira, allowing for two additional days on location.
The trip will be different from most you have been on. For starters, it involves two days travel aboard open Indian dugouts, negotiating falls and rapids all the way. Our accommodations on location will be adequate but, as of yet, undetermined. We will have our own chef as well as essential interpreters and staff. However, it will be much different than life aboard the AMOR/Beatriz…
The dates for the trips are as follows:
1st Team – December 28 – January 07, 2010
2nd Team – January 11 – 21, 2010
Well, there is the opportunity available to the few who will be able to join me. Please pray about the whole thing, seeking clarity as God chooses to reveal. I look forward to hearing from each who may feel this is what God may have in mind for your Christmas and New Year’s.
Call or email me if you would seriously consider this special blessing over the holidays. As always, let me know how I may be of service. May you continue to be teachable as God leads in the days ahead.
From the Helm – Friday, August 28, 2009
3:20 AM - I’ve been back in the USA for 3 weeks now. Yesterday, I was schedule to leave for the Valley to complete preparations for our final trip of the season. The trip will no longer take place as planned and prepared for, leading to several unusual circumstances in the life of AMOR. All, surmountable. All, ultimately positive. All is well.
- Lord, these have been interesting days You’ve gifted me with. I’ve had the opportunity to observe the victory of human instinct over things of the spirit – sadly watching opportunities to serve being overwhelmed by earthly wisdom and the concerns of the flesh. This sometimes seems to happen with frightening ease when personal motivation is unleashed in the absence of simple, earnest self-appraisal. I stand guilty of such more times than I’d care to acknowledge, making self-appraisal of even greater necessity in my own life.
You’ve taught me much this week that will become clearer as the coming days and weeks unfold. One old, yet timeless insight has been refreshing: When limited by the bounds of human wisdom and logic, we act and react in predictable ways. My only control in the deal is to continually strive for acceptance of this ever present truth. More often than not, people will act as people will act. I’m aware of this via the absolute recognition of the trait within my own being. When left solely to my own ingenious devices, less than desirable outcomes usually result.
- These days, Lord, You’ve allowed me opportunities to seek Your guidance and clear direction at new levels. You’ve allowed me the privilege of a higher dependence that has led to a greater comfort and peace in my soul. I’m grateful for all that has transpired. Your ways are beautiful to me. I welcome and humbly await the wisdom that will certainly come of it all. Things are just as they are meant to be. Your Grace, Wisdom and Provision are, as always, fully sufficient – fully sufficient, indeed…
- The Boys are back in the full swing of sports, school and relationships (or lack of). It’s been good to watch as they’ve sought out their niche in it all. Mom and Dad are physically well. No great challenges at the moment. I’ve enjoyed the close proximity to them, meeting daily for coffee, conversation, etc. It’s a privilege God has given us as a family for the several months we’re able to be together like this. This privilege is one I am intensely aware of and truly grateful for. Few have such an opportunity…
- I returned Sunday evening from a weekend in Louisville, Kentucky. We had a reunion gathering at the Wheeler’s home for the team members from over the years. I saw so many friends that I’ve not seen in a good while. The fellowship was beautiful. The drive to and from served well to clear and settle my mind. Lord, You’ve been gracious to place people in my life who are genuine. Everywhere You’ve allow me to trudge, there You’ve placed those to be loved and those to be loved by. I am overwhelmed by Your mercy and grace in this area. Thank You for Your consideration of me in this way. Thank You, indeed…
- Well, this day is about to dawn. In a couple of hours, it will bring light to new opportunities. I look forward to all that will be revealed. I have the feeling that by the time I lay my head down this evening, it will have been a day, indeed…
From the Helm – Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Been home a week, today. Still in the process of seeing where the dust has settled. It’s been a slow process.
It seems almost surreal as I’ve walked through these days. There’ve been some changes all around and yet, all remains the same. It’s made me aware of how fortunate I am to have been able to step away to a different place with a different set of circumstances for a while – to know there’s another world beyond my own petty needs and wants.
- I’m grateful God has allowed me what He’s allowed me. Through any difficulties, He’s been faithful to provide peace and contentment. Through all the little thrills along the way, He’s reminded me to be appreciative of such moments. He’s truly what He says He is. Dependant upon my seeking His will for each step I take, He’s the answer to any doubt that may arise along the way. I’m grateful there’s absolutely nothing I must figure out on my own.
- This has been a blessed summer. The trips were phenomenal – the people I was blessed to meet along the way, inspiring. We were able to travel new waters, resulting in new relationships in the Valley – Relationships that have enriched my life and humbled my soul. I’m grateful for it all.
- The Alabama team has cancelled their September departure. Although it’s somewhat disappointing, I know the reasons for my calendar being so cleared will become obvious as the days unfold. When the time comes for us to explore the Araria River, we will do so. For now, I know God has other plans of which I need no immediate clues – just knowledge of today’s deal will suffice…
- The way it looks now, my schedule is rather full over the next weeks. Finances are rather thready. I look to God’s direction along these lines. Many have contributed in beautiful ways; others have found it not possible to participate. I know things are just the way they should be – I’ve done what I’ve felt led to do along these lines. I make myself available to His leading to do anything, anywhere. There are no mountains to climb and no depths to endure – just the walk along the way as He reveals the path.
It’s good to be home. The Boys are enjoying the company of their more delicate counterparts. It’s been fun to see the sparkles in their collective eyes. I know they’re also grateful their mother’s here for awhile. She’ll keep things a bit more livable around this old bachelor’s pad of ours.
Well, this Thursday has dawned. I look forward to the hours as they unfold. I look forward to it all, indeed…
From the Helm – Monday, August 03, 2009 (cont…)
3:00 PM – Well, it’s been an eventful cruise thus far. We left Maues on schedule. My meeting with Edno and Abraao went well. They are set, fueled and cashed up for the September trip.
- The younger girls have been laying out upstairs. All our single crewmen have been unusually attentive to their needs and safety. Such concern for human life…
- I had my nails done for the trip home – feels so very good. The guys back in the USA have no idea what they’re missing by passing up such a treatment. Truly feels good to be pampered on occasion.
- A few minutes ago, Amadeu cut his finger quite badly in the kitchen. Scott is sewing him up in the pharmacy. Looks like a tendon and artery were both severed. God will see them through the deal. I’m grateful I’m not the only one here. This is best left for someone who’s better up for the task. I’m grateful Scott’s here, indeed…
5:00 PM - The Lori just pulled up along side for tow. She’s getting air and vapor locks in her the main engine. It’s time to re-vamp her for further service – aluminum fuel tanks, pre-filter system, etc. She’s a doll. Like any lady, she just needs some long overdue TLC...
From the Helm – Tuesday, August 04, 2009
2:00 PM – We just arrived at the Floating Mall across from Manaus. The group is out shopping till they drop. Then, off on a little jungle tour to cap off the day. They’re all planning to spend the evening at the Mall in Manaus after dinner. I’ll just stay put on the Beatriz.
- We travel tomorrow afternoon for Miami. Just one more night aboard my baby, Beatriz.
- It’s time to go home. It’s been a truly beautiful season. God has blessed beyond measure in every imaginable way. He has been faithful through His providence, grace, mercy and guidance. I know He will continue to reveal to me things I’ve missed along
From the Helm – Monday, August 03, 2009
5:30 AM – The engines of the Beatriz and Lori just fired up. We’re underway toward home. After a quick stop in Maues to drop Tereza off, we’ll set out course for Manaus. ETA is set for around Noon, tomorrow.
I look forward to the journey up-stream. The conversation is always good…
From the Helm will continue as thoughts and events warrant. Otherwise, not…
From the Helm – Sunday, August 02, 2009
5:00 AM – It’s the dawn of our final day on location. Yesterday was a blessing, despite the sullen heat. There wasn’t so much as a breeze and the gnats plagued us in medical. Even a huge family of bats hung above us, quivering as we worked beneath them. I’m grateful for the fans from the Beatriz – helped immensely through our chores. Medical saw many people and dental was steady. I was even able to do an eye on a lady. I’m assuming bat droppings will help in her recovery process…
- Perpetual Socorro is the smallest of the three villages along our way. It is also the most ridged in allegiance to the Catechism of the church. I look forward to seeing that loyalty yield considerably today, as God’s Truth takes the place of man’s dictates. It’s what needs to take place for any kind of joy to prevail. It is necessary to life itself…
1:00 PM – Back aboard for lunch. The morning’s activities went smoothly. Had to set up my drill to split a tooth. Served to make things a little more interesting. Glad you provided it for us, David…
- Construction is building an outhouse in back of the school. Like back home, they tend to wonder off on a bathroom break and not come back. This’ll keep them a bit more visible, for what it’s worth. VBS had another full house. Tey, in medical, spent a good bit of the morning caring for a 19-month-old about the size of a 3-month-old. She is severely atrophied in the arms from lack of muscle tone due to mal-nutrition. Hopefully, with prayer and therapy by the mom, she’ll begin to develop. She is precious. Difficult to look upon the way she is today. I pray the little mother will follow through with the instructions given…
- Our Evangelism teams have been out and about, visiting the nearby villages form years past. I’ve heard of the wonderful reunions that have taken place. This team has reached the point in their ministry where relationships have developed, not just acquaintances. So good to see this happen time and again over several years of returning to a particular region. I’ve seen it with the Satere’s, Mundurucu’s, Lago Preto, Mamuru (just to mention a few) and now, here along the Maues Acu. Trust develops over time. No other way I know of it happening. Persistence and patience…
- The plan for the remainder of the day is to do more of the same until we’ve run out of time. Tonight, we’ve scheduled a closing service for 7 o’clock. I look forward to it, indeed.
Tomorrow, we’ll sail at dawn for Maues and beyond. Our hours together are numbering less and less. It’s been a good journey. All are well. All are grateful to be right where God’s placed them for these days. Sweet spirits all around.
- Spoke with Dad this morning. Seems like all is set for someone to pick me and the family up in Little Rock on Thursday afternoon. Wow, the days, weeks and months have passed so quickly. I guess I can now consider it about time to go to my other home for awhile. See how life’s been happening across the waters during my absence. I imagine it’s made it just fine without me…
From the Helm – Saturday, August 01, 2009
3:30 AM – Got up a bit ago, well rested, feeling grateful for many things in my life. I think sitting and holding the two-year-old girl who almost drowned the other day has a great deal to do with the gratitude in my heart. She’s so affectionate. As I sat, visiting with her father, she was in my lap playing with my watch and beard for more than half and hour. Such a beautiful, innocent creation. So grateful she’s still here for me to hold.
Her father is still struggling with matters of logic and self-sufficiency. It’s sad to see a person in such straits. The team and I continue to pray for his surrender to Christ. Last night, everyone pitched in and raised a thousand dollars to help replace the motor and canoe he lost – It will more than take care of the whole deal. My crew pulled together as well, donating items of their own clothing to the family. All unsolicited acts of kindness that humbled my heart. I’m in good company, indeed…
- Our plan is to work through the morning and depart for Perpetual Socorro over lunch. The service last night touched the lives of two men of Santo Antonio. It’s worth it all to see lives changed – wherever the place may be; whatever the cost. My heart is subdued by the magnitude of God’s workings and grace.
11:40 AM – The morning worked out better than I could have ever planned. As soon as we hit shore, at seven o’clock, Denilson negotiated a new canoe and tail dragger for our little family. At around 10:30, we gifted it to the family along with some “AMOR/Beatriz” life rings, gasoline and lots of clothing. In the midst of it all, I came to find the young man had accepted Christ as his Savior just an hour before. Lord, thank You for answering our prayers. Thank You for giving new life to this young family. Thank You for allowing me to witness it all. You are truly beautiful to me…
- We’re now underway, headed to Perpetual Socorro. I have no idea how long it will take. Still a number of hours left in the day. I’m grateful for few that already past – I look forward to any that may remain…
From the Helm – Friday, July 31, 2009
5:00 AM – The dawn is simply beautiful. The Star of Dalva is bright next to Orion’s Belt. Even amidst the hum of the generator, the peacefulness of the scene is complete. The night yielded good rest and sleep.
At the end of the day, yesterday, we had a brief service of thanksgiving. Jose, the President of Santa Maria, delivered a message of gratitude on behalf of the community. He thanked the team for all they’d done, emphasizing the teaching of the Bible. Without a doubt, the message of God’s grace and salvation has been firmly planted here.
On my way to the Beatriz to board, I met up with Francisco. This is a young man who’s been very involved with all we’ve done in this place. He’s been present and helped with VBS, construction and even the Bible studies. I was impressed by his eagerness to participate. I’d assumed him to be one of the young teachers of the school. To my surprise, he informed me he was the Catechist of the Catholic Church. For a moment, I had no words. This is a young man our team befriended almost instantly. One that seemed the most intrigued with all we’d come to do. He, come to find out, is the very man charged by the Diesis to forbid our access to Santa Maria. The end result – God moved in his heart to not only welcome us but to also help us through it all. God has begun a work only He is capable of starting – a work in Francisco’s heart and mind. I’ll pray for him as often as he comes to mind. My, my, my. What a deal to witness…
9:00 AM – The day is underway. Ray has taken off to Perpetual Socorro to warn them of our arrival tomorrow afternoon. The way the schedule looks now, we’ll spend today and tomorrow (until Noon) here in Santo Antonio. Then, move on to Socorro for the final two days of our time on location. That’s the plan, as plans go here in the Valley. It’ll be interesting to see how it actually unfolds…
1:00 PM – An emotional morning ashore. We had a difficult patient in dental but, that’s just part of the deal. What moved me was the story told me by the young President of the community. During yesterday’s storm, he and his 4 children, the younger two being 4 and 2 years of age, were caught in the middle of the river, in their canoe, when the winds came up. The storms here in the bays of Maues are among the most wicked I’ve seen anywhere. Their canoe capsized, throwing him and the children to the waves. He spent more than an hour at sea holding up his two youngest until he was finally able to reach the shore. No loss of life.
Today, this young man is rattled to the core. He’s confused, grateful, angry and helpless. He’s lost his canoe, provisions and tail-dragger engine. In the midst of it all though, he doesn’t yet realize he’s been given a new chance at life. I’ve asked that God give me time this afternoon to sit and hear his story. If He so ordains, I’ll share the Solution he’s searching for and needs at this time. As for his physical needs, we’ll gladly meet them all from the abundance God’s given us. Lord, make his heart ready to hear of You…
- All teams have had a great morning. Santo Antonio is a smaller community than Santa Maria. One easier to get to know. Those who’ve made it to the clinic or in to mine or Kristina’s chairs have been sweet and friendly. It’s been a joy to serve them. Construction is raising up a structure that will serve as a health outpost. VBS was the usual blessing to all involved. Evangelism visited in homes and held Bible studies. Ray made it back – Socorro is on alert for tomorrow afternoon. It’s been like a whole day wrapped up in a single morning. It’s good to be here, indeed…
5:00 PM – A storm just past. We’re in a safe-harbor as it is. So, all went smoothly. We’ve just finished our work for the day and are about to head up and hold a service. Our team is all well. Everyone has an opportunity too share in the evenings before bed. All are receiving something a little different from their varied experiences ashore. I enjoy listening. It’s good to hear how God is dealing in each life. It’s all good…
- I had an opportunity to speak at length with the young man from the near drowning. He is also the Catechist here in Santo Antonio. There’s some ice that needs to melt in order for him to understand the simplicity of the Christ he proclaims to serve. Hopefully, we’ll have a bit more time together before we part ways, tomorrow afternoon. I believe we will…
Thursday, July 30, 2009 (cont…)
3:40 PM – The morning and early afternoon ended up being full. Medical and dental both worked til all was finished around 3 o’clock. In dental, we managed to thin the line out when a young woman came close to fainting after a prolonged visit to the chair (the things we’ll do to enjoy an early cup of coffee…). Bless her heart, she’s fine. She had just begun her period and an hour in the chair was about an hour too long to begin with.
The children here are well behaved. Cindy made the comment that they know less about Bible stories and choruses than any she visited over the years. We’ve notice the adults are much the same way. There’s a hunger for learning that matches our hunger to share. God has moved powerfully in Santa Maria over the past 48 hours. How sweet to see…
Our construction team has done a wonderful thing today. They’ve built a small house for a young couple having trouble getting on their feet. They’ve been living in a 6X9 room off the back of his parent’s house. Tonight, they’ll be the proud owners of a 10X12 home. I kidded with the kid telling him he’d better get in shape – he’s got a bigger area to have to keep up with his wife in. He beamed me a big smile – she just blushed a bit, cute as can be…
Ray and Eugene’s teams took to the waters this afternoon to visit the villages we worked in last year. I look forward to hearing from them later this evening. I’m certain they’ll have stories to tell. Growth is inevitable when the Holy Spirit moves among a people as He has in the region. Year after year, we see the evidence of His continued presence and workings. God isn’t obligated to reassure us in this way. I’m grateful He chooses to do so, so much of the time. Grateful, indeed…
From the Helm – Thursday, July 30, 2009
3:00 AM - What a great service last evening. The house was full and many others stood within hearing range. Seven adult men came forward accepting Christ as their Savior. What an awesome thing for me to witness. Very moving.
- My instruments arrived about the time we were shutting things down for the day. There is very little anesthetic among our supplies. I forgot to restock. I guess we’ll have just enough to work til it’s all gone. Should be enough to get through the trip.
Thank You, Lord, for hanging the Milky Way so low and proud this morning. Being the only one up to see it, I assume You hung it just for me. Thank You, indeed…
- I want to also thank You for Your provision. I have asked for Your help through the touching of specific lives to give to Your work here in the Valley. Through them, you are providing – I am humbled before You in gratitude for those few who have already answered the call to give selflessly. I pray your continued peace and provision in their lives and the lives of those who are still considering their response to the request. Protect them, bless and encourage them of Your light and comfort. Bless each one as they seek Your will during the course of this day. May they feel Your presence as they go about the duties laid before them. I dearly love each one, regardless of response…
7:00 AM – This day has begun. I look forward to it all. There will certainly be new marvels to experience as the hours unfold…
From the Helm – Wednesday, July 29, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOM!!!!!!!!!! I Love you, miss you and look forward to seeing you next weekend!
5:00 AM – We cruised to a cove off Santa Maria last night, arriving just after 9 PM. Sleep was good. The weather was accommodating.
While in Maues I was able to visit with both Moises and Edno. Moises’ boat is already pulled ashore with the refitting work in progress. The AMOR/Patrice will be brand new in about a month. Thank You, Lord…
- Edno just wanted to say “hey”. He’s returned on Sunday from Lago Grande where construction has begun on the place of worship in Sao Paulo. He baptized the first two of the 81 new Christians in that region. What an amazingly, beautiful thing! A place I’d never heard of just two months ago. A place I’d no immediate plans of visiting. God closed the doors to the Wai-Wai Nation, sending us to experience His Power and Saving Grace amongst a people that stole my heart from the very first day. Only God could design such a scenario. Only God could bless in such a way. My spirit tingles within me at the remembrance of such kindness on His part…
- Tereza came up and shared with us for a good little bit before departure, yesterday. We are blessed with being able to visit three communities this year who have rejected our presence in the past. The overbearing problem has been the Catholic Diocese in Maues. No matter how we attempt to explain the deal, the Church is adamant that the communities resist our presence. We pray often that God soften the hearts of the leadership to allow us to present His Saving Grace. As usual, He has accommodated. We never come to “convert” from one religion to another. We come to share the Christ all people seek deep within their souls. Nothing more; nothing less…
10:00 AM – All teams were ashore and busy by 8 o’clock. Medical has a steady flow. Construction is putting a new roof on the community generator house. Evangelism is meeting in small group all over the village. Dental is out for the day. It seems that during the rush and excitement of leaving Boas Novas in the Satere Nation last week, my “box” of instruments and supplies was left behind. So, Moises, Seraphim and Artuzinho have taken off to retrieve it. Maybe get to pull a tooth or two this afternoon…
- Santa Maria is a large, clean community. Tereza was sharing with us that the people are grateful we are here but are fearful of retaliation on the part of their church leaders in Maues. Unbeknownst to these precious ones, we’ve come to alleviate all fear through offering a personal relationship with Christ. It’ll be a beautiful deal to watch as many come to know Him as I’ve been so blessed to Know Him.
Noon – At anchor for lunch and a swim. The morning was good. Unusually hot out today. I pray everyone continues to drink liquids. So very important out here.
- Several decisions this morning during the Bible studies and visits to the homes. The people here are very open to receive what is being offered them. There doesn’t seem to be any more interest in medical than there is in the studies. How good to see the hunger for Truth.
God’s Truth truly set this man free. All other avenues gave me wings to fly and then, took away the sky…
3:00 PM – Well, the day continues. All activities in full swing. I got to sit in on some of VBS – what a deal that always is! My tools still haven’t arrived. As a matter of fact, word is, one of the health agents of the tribe sent the box straight to Maues this morning via their medical boat. I guess I’m just supposed to continue taking in all there is to see in Santa Maria. I’m grateful for the extended reprieve…
All are well and in good spirits. A service will be held at the close of the afternoon, around 5 o’clock. I look forward to it all, indeed…
From the Helm – Tuesday, July 28, 2009
3:40 AM – We’ve been granted smooth sailing throughout the night. The stars have been so bright and well defined; our pilots have scarcely used the spots. The Star of Dalva reflecting a path on the water from the horizon to our bow. It took me awhile to finally close my eyes and sleep – so beautiful.
We were finally underway at 7 last night. We chose to wait out the roughness of the Negro – she was unusually irritated til darkness brought her calm. It’s been a while since our teams have departed after sunset. It was a good to see the city lights for a change.
- The Lori is about 100 yards off our starboard side right now. She’s a beautiful vessel, all lit up in the night. Eight of our team members are bunking aboard her, making the Beatriz a little less crowded. It’s good to have the Lori – she adds to our flexibility during trip with multiple destinations like this one.
- Lord, I want to thank You for all that has transpired over these past days. As I lay in my hammock last night, I found it difficult to focus on any one event long enough to express my gratitude for Your presence, provision and grace in my life and work. It was frustrating for a bit. Then I realized there’d occurred such a myriad of things - my mind was just too tired to hold a complete thought. Thank You for simply resting me through the night. I needed it more than I’d thought.
5:40 AM - Just past Itacoatiara off the Port side. The Lori’s tied off to us for as long as the waters permit. For now, it’s real smooth. The sun is rising. A new day has begun…
12:20 PM – Well, we are quite a bit slower than usual with the Lori in tow. Our new ETA is set for more like 4 this afternoon. So, we cruise and cruise…
The team spent the morning sorting through all the bags. After about 3 hours, it was all done. Very organized bunch. It’s been good to sit around and visit with several throughout the morning. A time to catch up on our separate events during the year. These are wonderful people. Ray and Eugene are as sweet as ever. It’s good to have Kristina, Scott and Todd back. Deborah and Audrey are a special treat as well…
4:45 PM – Just pulled away from Maues with Tereza aboard. Have no clue where we’re going yet. Just know we’re headed there as I write. Thank You, Lord, for safe passage. Thank You for all You have in store for us as the days unfold. It’s a privilege to be here in Your care…
From the Helm – Monday, July 27, 2009
5:00 AM - Thank You, Lord Jesus, Thank You… Your Grace and Provision never cease to awe and astound me. Thank You for Your kindness and faithfulness. Thank You for those who have chosen to be touched by Your call to help and serve. I know with all that I am, You will bless these far beyond their scope of imagination…
I slept soundly and fitfully through the night. Thank You for allowing me time to sit with You this early morning. We discussed it all and all is settled in my heart. I love You and am entirely Yours to build and do with as You will. Thank You for the privilege of walking in Your gentle embrace…
- Just a note of explanation of From the Helm… These writings are nothing more, really, than my diary. During trip progression, they deal with trip specifics and observations from location. Between the trips and while I am away from the Valley, they are of a more personal nature. If you do not wish to be encumbered by such non-trip-related thoughts and meanderings, please disregard them unless the “subject” line reflects a specific or urgent matter. Thanks for your consideration, prayers and support of our work in the Valley.
5:00 PM – The team has arrived and we are about to set sail. All are well and as ready as I am to see what the Lord has in store. So good to see all the familiar faces along with the new ones. It’s all good, indeed…
Our ETA and rendezvous with Tereza in Maues is set for 2 PM, tomorrow. My, my, it’s great to be back on the River…
From the Helm – Sunday, July 26, 2009
7:00 PM - Had a good meeting this morning. Also, received word from the Beatriz that she and the Lori are ready to travel. We fueled them both on Friday. All that we know to do has been done.
- The plan for in the morning is to go down and be reassured we are cleared for sailing with the Captain of the Port. We never know till you know. Actually, we never know till they stop us underway and make the decision on the spot, regardless of prior approval… With the new Commander in charge, the rules seem to be changing once again. The “re-categorizing” requirement for the Beatriz leaves many questions in the air. I hope to know the scope of these when I meet with the dispatcher in the morning.
- A touch of “pre-trip” adrenaline is fighting against the calm. It’s normal for me but, seems to intensify as the trip season progresses. It will be good to just get underway. I long for the River when I’m here in the city. Many times, the only good I see in being here is the discipline of being where I’d rather not be – good enough.
- This afternoon, I received an email from a dear friend of mine. Its contents were among the most reassuring and humbling I’ve ever received. It reminded me of who I am and from whence I’ve come. It reminded me that I’ve never done well with an abundance of most anything – complacency and arrogance have always robbed me of any joy that might have come with having more than I need. It reminded me of a few questions I must ask myself from time-to-time: Would I continue to minister here in the Valley if I had to do it alone and unnoticed? Would I continue to seek God’s will if no one were around to see the result of the seeking? Would I continue to trust if I actually received all those things I tend to dream of? Would I continue to share my thoughts even if I knew they might not be well received by some? In other words, would I continue in faith, dependence, gratitude and willingness to serve even in the absence of tangible, supportive results?
I ask myself variations of these questions every day. It’s part of how I begin each day. Meditating before the Lord regarding false-motives, selfish-ambition, lust, pride and the like, is the only way I’m able to survive the daily attraction of such destructive thought processes. In confession of such things, I realize my powerlessness over them – thus, the necessity of God’s protection and guidance through them. Whatever thoughts I leave unaddressed before my God, are those I’m likely to succumb to during the day’s unfolding. These are the things that block me from His presence.
So, on a day my answer to any of the above questions is “no” (and some days it is), it’s a day I’d best remain isolated and alone til the answer changes – of this, I am certain…
- This has been a good day You’ve given me. Thank You for friends. Thank You for family. Thank You for the joys of each…
From the Helm – Saturday, July 25, 2009
3:00 PM - Thank You, Lord, for the good day you’ve given me. You’ve helped me in many ways I’d not expected. You’ve given me peace where there was a shade of unrest. You’ve given me health where it’s been failing a bit. I thank You for your consideration of me…
I was able to work the remainder of yesterday after getting our team off to the airport at Noon. The Boys had traveled South at 2 AM, arriving in Minas about the time Orlando left for home. It was a full day indeed but, most of the purchasing was accomplished and delivered by days’ end – a good feeling to rest on.
After a couple of nights with some breathing and sinus difficulty, last night yielded a full 7 hours, uninterrupted sleep. It sure has made a difference today. Good to be close to normal once again.
- Over the past days, I’ve been in contact with Melanie at our bank regarding payments and receipts. It’s become obvious that with one less trip this year, our finances will be more of a challenge than in years past.
As I lay in bed last night, I simply asked God to show me what I should do first. By morning, He’d made clear two things: First, that I’m not imperative to anything He has going on here in the Valley and that I need but be willing to follow Him anywhere He has for me to serve, whether here in the Valley or in a job of some kind back home. Wherever He leads is just the place I’ll desire to be. Second, He made clear that I should write a letter to a few people I know, expressing our financial need. This too, I did. Then, having done what He’d shown to do along these lines, I went on to the city with the day’s list of business. It will all be just as God desires it to be. Not a bit more or less…
So, here I sit in my room. Thank You Lord for the night’s rest and this day of work You’ve allowed me. It’s been good to spend time with You. I appreciate Your reassurances and calming care for me. I don’t know how I’d make it without Your tenderness and light – then again, without it, I’d not make it at all…
Tomorrow, I have but one morning meeting. I look forward to a day in Your leisure. I look forward to what You may have for me to see and live. It is truly beautiful the way You care for me. Truly beautiful, indeed…
From the Helm – Wednesday, July 22, 2009
4:00 AM – I got up a few hours ago. We’ve been on a slow cruise with Moises’ AMOR/Patrice in tow. There’s been no moon – the stars are magnificent. I’ve been sitting at my table taking it all in.
- These days have been good. Several of our team rotated through a 24 hour bug. But, all bounced back quickly. None have missed much along the way. For the most part, they are an older crowd, the youngest being Josh Nassar and my Boys. There’s been a mellow atmosphere throughout the trip.
I’ve been grateful to have Robert, Candas, Terri, Ronnie, Barbara and Darlene aboard. They allowed me to be detached from dental and medical completely. It’s a privilege to work these facets of the ministry when no one else is available but, it leads to my missing the rest of the deal to some extent. I miss seeing the whole picture…
It will be interesting to hear everyone’s stories in the hours remaining. Some will be eager to share. Others will simply reflect within the confines of the heart and mind. I enjoy observing the whole gamut of responses.
- With the privilege of being free from specific duties came a whole range of opportunities to observe and learn. I’ve had the opportunity to sit and visit with the Tuchauas and Moises. I’ve come to better understand the dynamics of their culture. I’ve been humbled by their need and lack of need. These are a people who live a life specific to meeting their basic instincts – no frivolous extras. The only element lacking for most of them is that of spiritual completion.
All humanity is born with the same basic need and desire for spiritual peace. Regardless of our awareness of the fact, we seek it with every ounce of our being. God made us that way. It’s the way it is.
I sought this peace all my life. Tried every avenue my imagination could generate until all avenues collapsed beneath the weight of their insufficiency. Upon discovering this, all efforts ceased - I’d become teachable.
In my own life, this was the point of discovery and enlightenment. This point of surrender making possible the life I desired. By God’s grace, the peace of mind and soul I robbed of others while attempting to find it for myself was finally irrefutably mine – free and abundant...
This peace only God can author is what I pray for the Satere’s and all others alike. All else merely benefits the flesh in some way or other, keeping the body comfortable while the spirit remains undeniably lost and miserable. Most every day, God leads people my way with physical needs to be met. Through the meeting of these needs, the healing of the soul becomes possible. I’m grateful to God for allowing me even a small part in His workings. To watch a person come to know Him is worth any perceived cost or discomfort. It’s a beautiful thing to behold. It is worth my life itself…
– Departure from Maues is scheduled after dropping off Kazuza and Moises at 8 this morning. We’ll be underway toward Manaus at last…
From the Helm – Tuesday, July 21, 2009
7:00 AM - Our final day on location has begun. The well flushed throughout the night. The drilling resumed earlier this morning. I pray we find water within 80’. We have a number of rods that have become bent and bare-threaded during the course of the summer. Our capability for depth is limited. Just have to drill on and see what happens…
- I went and spent some time with Kazuza at his hut. He’s a gentle and wise man. His only concern is for the leadership that will follow when he is gone. Pride and greed have led his younger brothers and sons to start clans of their own, leaving him to select from outside the family line. With the death of his wife in April, the certainty of his mortality has come to rest heavily on his mind and heart. I reassured him he’s led well throughout his life. God will show him to whom he should pass his leadership when the time comes.
The clans are totally dependant upon their Tuchaua. The absence of his wisdom leads to drifting and chaos. I know God’s direction for Kazuza’s succession will become clear as he seeks such direction. He need not fret, only seek selflessly and follow the clarity that will ensue…
9:30 AM – All teams are in full swing. Bible Study begins in a few minutes. We’ve reached 65’ in the drilling process. Avery fine sand is slowing down progress a bit. We’ve only 3 more rods to either hit good water or stop entirely. Lord, it’d be grand to hit water. However, if our preparation had been better, we’d be able to drill on. Human error, as usual…
3:30 PM – Our teams have just shut down and bagged out to the boat. Our crew and Jimbo have been toiling with the well dig all day long. The bit is bound 70 feet below. They’ll do everything possible to free it and raise the rods. If unsuccessful, it’s just the way things go sometimes. We’re grateful, anyway, for the opportunity to try. There will be another day to dig if God so allows.
5:50 PM – Well, God truly knows how to end a day in beautiful fashion. We just held a baptismal service for a gentleman that was saved last night. As the service began, Matthew came up to me and asked if he too could be baptized. What welled up in me, only a father can comprehend. Pastor Moises, in Satere and Portuguese, baptized my youngest in the heart of the Satere-Maue Nation. Something I will never forget. First came Phillip and William along the Araria River of the Mundurucu Nation. Now, Matthew here in this Nation. A beautiful ending to an already perfect day. Thank You, Lord…
- We’re about to set sail for Manaus. ETA is set for 38 hours from pulling anchor. I look forward to the cruise. It’s a welcomed time to quietly reflect on the days. Much for me to reflect upon, indeed…
From the Helm – Monday, July 20, 2009
4:00 AM – I woke up a bit ago. I walked out of my cabin in to a swirling mist of fog. It slowly danced through the Beatriz, carried by the breeze. It was beautiful to sit and watch. The shapes created would bring envy to the mind of Vincent. “Starry Night” could only hope to capture the sight I beheld…
The service last night was beautiful to me. We met in the Tuchaua’s hut – sitting around much like while in a private meeting with the Chief. Moises spoke from 2 Corinthians – the crowd was attentive, mumbling in agreement. The message was well received. In the end, both the Tuchaua and Capataz gave lengthy discourses in gratitude for our presence and the teaching of the Word.
The people of this Nation are truly hungry for God’s presence in their lives. Although they may not fully realize the nature of their hunger, it’s quite obvious to me. I pray God’s gentle tough of Self-revelation upon the hearts and minds of this people. Our charge is but to present His Word – He’s the only One capable of affecting it. This, He is doing through His Spirit. How grateful I am to be witness to it all…
9:30 AM – All teams ashore and working for more than an hour now. Soon, dental and medical should be finished with all who are waiting. VBS will work with the children until departure time. Construction is putting the finishing touches on a set of stairs for the local nurse’s house. We should be underway to Kazuza’s community within a few hours. I’ve sent William, Phillip and Moises ahead to let them know of our unscheduled visit. I love the “unscheduled”…
1:00 PM – About an hour ago we pulled away from shore, headed to Kazuza’s. At the last moment, Matthew came aboard with a baby Cutia and Paca. I guess we have us a couple of glorified rats as new mascots…
The “sticks” have been easier than expected. Our pilot, Naldo, is handling the Beatriz smoothly, even headed downstream. Only about an hour left before we hit open channel.
- My “secret” plan is to sink a well for Kazuza. I’ve wanted to do so for several years now. I’ve not had all the pieces of the puzzle together before today. If it be God’s will we reach water for him, it will be done. The crew is ready for the effort. I’m excited by the possibilities. We’ll see what happens.
3:15 PM – The team is onshore visiting the huts. VBS is holding an abbreviated session with the children. Our equipment has been set up and the drilling has begun…
From the Helm – Sunday, July 19, 2009
10:00 AM - Awoke early this morning to the sound of splashing and laughter around the Beatriz. The crew was ceremonially throwing each other in to the frigid waters as each got out of their hammocks! It’s become a tradition, of sorts, here in Aldeia Nova. I’m glad there’s still enough respect around to exclude the “bosses” from the ordeal…
- First on the schedule today was to go see how a patient we saw last night was doing this morning. She’s had a sustained, low-grade fever for the past 23 days. Barbara conducted some tests that indicated a bladder infection. The lady was better this morning. We’ll see how the day goes before determining whether or not to send her on to Maues.
- The Tuchaua isn’t here today. However, the Captain has been left in charge and is receptive to all areas off ministry. A Bible Q&A will begin in a few minutes. Construction is erecting an outhouse for the “city” nurse. VBS is in full swing. Medical and dental have had their day pretty much mapped out for them – lots of people…
- I’ve enjoyed the devotionals onboard each morning. Team members have alternated each day. It’s been good to hear the things form each one's heart. The romance of the Valley tends to simplify God’s Truths. For me, it is here I’m able to more easily grow, unencumbered as God chooses to reveal Himself. I’d wish such times upon everyone though I recognize the hurdles required for most to reach my Valley. The good news is: He’s just as gracious and faithful to lead and teach regardless of where we may find ourselves along the way. I humbly recognize the privilege I’ve been granted and am grateful for it - profoundly grateful, indeed.
12:40 PM – At the moment, we’re anchored for lunch. The morning was full. Dental saw 22 patients with that many again, waiting for them on shore. Medical finished with all who were waiting to be seen. VBS was, well, busy…
I was able to take some time to listen in again during the Study. I’ve never heard the steps leading to Christ explained so well. Chris and William did a beautiful job. The Captain asked that we hold services this evening so the rest of the community might here what he heard this morning. I look forward to it very much.
- Since seeing the “barge” back in Manaus, I’ve paid close attention to where we’ve travelled. Close attention to the often difficult passages we must forge along the way. The areas of “sticks” we must pass through here in the Nation are among the worst we’ve encountered anywhere. In talking with the crew and the Boys, we’d have no problem with the barge. As a matter of fact, due to it’s lesser draft and prop cages, we’d actually make better time by cutting across some to the brush instead of having to go around it. Anyway, it’s fun to imagine what it would be like. Our needs are more than met with the Beatriz. Anything other than her would simply be something other than her.
4:00 PM – The rain is pouring down – a much needed reprieve from the heat and humidity. Jim and I took the AMOR/TT up the river a bit to check out a collapse of the embankment that’s blocked the way. The river becomes immediately smaller past our anchor. We’re at the furthermost point the Beatriz is able to navigate. Years ago, we went to the end of this river in our secondary vessels – a community by the name of Nazare. Maybe someday, I’ll be blessed to return there once again.
- Aldeia Nova is a primitive settlement of people with little contact with so mush as the rest of the Satere Nation. They are kind and generous. I sense no malice in their mannerisms or spirit. A people who are not demanding in any way. We are to “love, regardless of response”. These have made it easy to do so…
Services are set for seven this evening. Our team is well, tired, in good spirits. Thank You, Lord, for this day you’ve given me to live. It’s been a pleasure walking through it in Your care…
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